A few things that I did not mention prior to this project taking off, perhaps hinted at but have not stated, is that this is not a controlled experiment--meaning, I am also involved in other forms of change and may not be able to fully decipher whether or not the glasses are the root of any transformations. The other forms of healing I am involved in include float tank therapy, energy work including chakra clearing & meditation, creative expression through drawing & painting, and food consciousness (tough-and-go). So, please understand that any noticeable/significant adjustments or changes observed/witnessed/experienced could be a combined effort of all these processes.
That being said, I have found a significant level of calm that has overcome my inner being in the last day or two. Last night, I was invited into a situation that I would have normally, with impulsive reasoning, jumped at the chance, but found I was comfortable and calm in saying "no" and further more found a great deal of satisfaction, confidence, and strength in doing so. Following the decision, I sat in my car, driving, and realized that this decision was profound in its very nature to be opposite of my natural desire to engage socially, but confident that my decision was made through careful analysis of safety and wellness. The person giving the invitation was confused and demanded an excuse for my decision to back out, as it was an event loosely discussed for the last month; however, I found no reason to give an excuse falling back on the idea that no behavior needs explanation if it is the right behavior. While this is a common response I have, I believe the calmness that has come over me in the last few days was the driving force behind the decision I made. This, laughingly, does not count at giving an excuse, as I am merely documenting my thoughts, actions, and observations of self and others. Thanks Baker-Miller Pink.
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