Once again, I am having technical difficulties, but not to worry, pictures should be up by the end of the weekend. That being said, I like Orange. It's odd though because I identify these glasses looking a bit like safety glasses, most likely due to being a hunter's son--Orange is the safety color. Ha ha. So I have experienced a little bit of low self-confidence (maybe that's not the right word), or feeling a bit self-conscious while wearing these. I mean, I'm all about safety (just ask my co-workers), but there's an odd feeling when I feel like I'm wearing shop glasses when I'm not in shop class, you know.
If you remember when this whole project started, I had a similar feeling when wearing Baker-Miller Pink-- something in the realm of being worried what others are thinking about me. It's kind of a worrisome feeling. Why do I have this? Is it because I overcompensated as a child when I didn't get the right amount or kind of attention from those around me? Or maybe because when I overcompensated, if that's what it was, my mom stated she was embarrassed to be around me in public? Or maybe this is just too much information for this blog and I should re-direct my inquiries of self to my counselor? Lol. ANYWAY...
The good news with this realization is that I continue to keep myself open to new realizations about self, and these glasses seem to be helping uncover some truths to the way I interact with, not only myself, but the world around me. At some level, to some degree, I have always known this information within myself. However, it's interesting to have it glaring me in the face when I'm out in public--undergoing a project that has me dedicating a specific amount of time to something that has potentially unknown outcomes of self and inner visions, at least unknown to me on the experiential level of existence. I mean, I can read all about the experience of others until I get vertigo, but until I actually experience it for myself, I cannot fully know what that feeling is actually like. For instance, the feeling I had of astral projection with Indigo: No substance or drug compares to having experienced this with a sober state of mind. In the past, I could have just explained it, or justified the trip, as induced by a chemical reaction in the mind from whatever drug I may have ingested, but in this case the drug being administered is the application of wearing a set of colored glasses.Wearing glasses...that's all!
Now, whether or not these occurrences (i.e. appetite suppression, astral projection, complete nonsensical tranquility) could be sustained if I wore a particular color for more than a week is something I cannot measure at this time. Only time and experience can measure that.
Have a wonderful day...
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